Saturday, August 10, 2013

Clashes of 2 worlds: Parents in Islam

Assalamualaikum again everyone!

I know it's been a long time since I updated my blog. While I was busy with my studies and all the graduating business (yes, I have finally graduated from medical school after a long 7 years in Russia), the main reason for not writing anything was the absolute lack of inspiration. hehehehe

There was never once a lack of topic to write about, just the lack of 'taufiq' to write.

So, inspiration has struck me again and this time I really have NO excuse to ignore the inspiration. So, here goes. Bismillahir rahmanir rahim!

This post goes out to those who are in the same position as I am in. Torn between two worlds.

Now that I have graduated and no longer going back to Russia, things in respect to my religion also has changed. I am not yet home with family so I am still able to do and dress as I want.

But in 2 days, I will be flying home; the place I was born and raised and where my parents still reside.



2 worlds... one is the idealistic world of my religion, Islam, where I am free to pray anywhere, dress as commanded by Allah, read the al-Quran anytime of the day, and enter a mosque whenever I wish to. The other is of reality, where I have to consider more than myself and evaluate more the delicacy of my situation.

In my opinion, religion is a personal choice. It cannot be forced upon anyone, and it cannot be denied from anyone. Religion, while a communal entity, should be decided by the individual itself as it involves the individuals own fate.

Hence, despite being born, raised and living in a Catholic family, I have chosen Islam as my religion and my way of life. The difficulty is not living an Islamic life itself, but doing so in an environment where the resistance comes not from friends or the community surrounding you, but from your family itself.

I can always find new friends or move away should I find these two factors hostile, but I can't excommunicate myself from my own family. So what to do?

My parents do not agree with my choice due to what I like to call Islam-terrorism-malay mentality, born out of ignorance, prejudice and racial issues plaguing my country.

They associate Islam with terrorism and Malays. The association between Islam and terrorism require few explanation as this is understood by most thanks to the media. The association between Islam and Malay, for readers who aren't Malaysian, may be a little mind boggling. Here's a brief explanation:

Malaysia is a multiracial country consisting of Malays, Chinese, Indians and the local people here, whom we call Bumiputra (mostly in the state of Sabah and Sarawak). I am a Chinese from Sarawak. Although we do portray a picture of harmony and peace to those looking towards Malaysia, we are indeed still plagued by racism, most times it is subtle but at times it can be out-right plain. We are officially an Islamic country, as the people governing our country are Muslims, namely the Malays as they are the majority. While we call ourselves Malaysians, we do not have equal rights among the different races that make Malaysia so colourful and unique. The Malays have their own 'special rights' and the rest of us cannot question those rights for if we do, we will be charged with inciting racism or worse, a threat against national security. We have found our homes in Malaysia, and despite the poorly veiled racist government and mind-set, we have found ways of adaptation and mostly choose to ignore the issue unless provoked. Hence, the portrayal of peace and harmony most foreigners see. However, this racism issue has planted a seed of discontent to most things Malay in the mindset of other races, including the religion associated with them. So, when most non-Muslims think about Islam, unfortunately, they associate it with the Malays and all goes down hill from there.

My parents are no different. Though both have much exposure with Malay colleagues, it does not change the situation, for when it comes to promotion, elections, etc, racism is felt throughout. Even I struggle with that difficulty. Most of the people I associate with while studying abroad and have gotten very close to are Malays. I am mature enough to know that not everyone can be stereotyped or grouped into the general. Hence, I didn't care much about the race of my friends, so long as they are good individuals, and I am proud to say, they are. And I am even more proud to say that they are good individuals BECAUSE of their belief in their religion. But unfortunately, I cannot say the same for the rest of the Malays in my country.

Back to my point, I, as my parents have a certain level of displeasure with the rights given to Malays and this has shaped our mindset. So, my parents, like myself associate Islam with Malays. But, unlike my parents, I was given the privilege to learn about Islam and not just stop there with the Islam-Malay mentality. Islam is perfect, just Muslims are not.

The same thing applies to the Islam-terrorism mentality. Islam is associated with terrorism/terrorist acts which translates to Islam being a bad and evil religion. Islam in my country is associated with Malay racism which translates to Islam being a bad and unjust religion. This is where my parents and most of my parents generation are coming from.

So, I face difficulties and opposition from my parents, aunts and uncles. So, for those facing the same problems as I do with family members, this particular post goes out to you all.

Islam teaches us to respect our parents, as stated in the Quran:

"and the Lord has decreed that you worship none but Him. And that you be dutiful to your parents. If one of them or both of them attain old age in your life, say not to them a word of disrespect, nor shout at them, but address them in term of honour" - 17:23

"and lower unto them the wing of submission and humility through mercy, and say: 'My Lord! Bestow on them Your mercy as they did bring me up when I was small" - 17:24

"and We have enjoined on man (to be dutiful and good) to his parents. His mother bore him in weakness and hardship upon weakness and hardship, and his weaning is in two years, give thanks to Me and to your parents, unto Me is the final destination" - 31:14


"but if they (both) strive with you to make you join in worship with Me others that of which you have no knowledge, then obey them not, but behave with them in the world kindly, and follow the path of him who turns to Me in repentance and in obedience. Then to Me will be your return, and I shall tell you what you used to do" - 31:15


These are a few examples of what the Quran says about parents in Islam.


So, we should always show respect to them, treat them with honour, kindness and gentleness for they have brought us into this world and raised us up. Our mothers went through the pain of childbirth and then nursed us, showed us a mother's love and compassion. Our fathers have worked hard to provide for the family, provided us with a comfortable life the best they could, and given us an education that was not possible for themselves. The sacrifices our parents have made are uncountable and immeasurable and above all else, a debt that cannot be paid full.

In an ideal world, your parents will support you in everything you do even if they do not necessarily agree with you. But unfortunately, not everyone is blessed with such ideal conditions. Some have been disowned by their parents for choosing Islam, if not worse.  My situation is not as dire. I know my parents still love me without a doubt, and they would not disown me, but my mother is on a determined path to bring me back to the Catholic faith. I am not angry nor do I love her less because of it because I understand her reaction and because Islam teaches me to be a good daughter towards them.

So, the painful choice I have to make is that I have to pray in secret (though I'm sure they'll figure it out) and of course, I cannot wear the hijab or fully cover my aurat. I shall eat whatever my mother has placed on the table as not to offend her and obey her. If and when she orders me to attend mass, I will. I will talk to priests and do anything she asks of me except one, that is to worship another God besides Allah. 

Duty to your parents comes right after the greatest duty in Islam, the solah as demonstrated in these hadith:

A companion of the Prophet once asked him which of the many good deeds a man can do is the most lived by Allah. Prophet Muhammad answered him by saying, "To offer the prayer in its proper time". The companion then asked, "And what is next?" to which Prophet Muhammad replied, "To be good and dutiful to your parents." The companion then asked, "Then what?" and Prophet Muhammad replied, "The jihad in the Way of Allah." 

Anas ibn Malik: A man came to the Messenger of Allah and said: "I longed to go on jihad but I was not able to." He said, "Is either one of your parents still alive?" The man said, "My mother." He said, "Allah has instructed us in devotion to her, so if you do thus, you are as one who has made the hajj, the umrah and participated in jihad."


Abdullah ibn Umar, a leading scholar among the Prophet's (PBUH) companions once saw a man from Yemen carrying his mother on his back and going around the Ka'bah in his tawaf. Rather than show any sign of complaint, the man way happy, repeating a line of poetry in which he likened himself to a camel his mother was mounting. The only difference is that a camel may be scared by something and go out of control. He would never go out of her control. He looked at Abdullah ibn Umar and asked him whether by so doing he discharged his debt to his mother. Ibn Umar said,"No. You have not even paid back one twinge of her labour pain when she gave birth to you." 

One person carried his mother on his shoulders and performed Hajj seven times. During the 7th Hajj he though that maybe he have fulfilled his duty and fulfilled the right of his mother. That night when he slept, he had a dream and saw that he was a baby and was sleeping. It was winter and he was sleeping close to his mother. He soiled the bed and saw that his mother got up and cleaned the bed of the impurities. Due to poverty, that was the bed only thing that they had to sleep on. He saw that on this cold night, his mother slept on the wet part of the bed and laid him down on her chest. He heard a voice saying,"Fulfilled your rights? You have not fulfilled the rights of this one night yet."

One person came to Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) and said, "Whilst travelling these was a place where the ground was so hot that if you placed a piece of meat on the ground, it could be cooked. I carried my mother on my shoulders for six miles over such ground. Have I fulfilled the rights of my mother?" Prophet Muhammand (PBUH) replied, "The pangs of pain that your mother went through when she was giving birth to you, maybe you have repaid the debt for once of those pangs."

I will do what I have to do in order to soften my parents' hearts, to show them that although I have chosen a different belief for myself, I have not denied them as my parents. 

I understand when my sister pointed out that my mother might feel as though she has failed at being a mother, as her youngest daughter has chosen a different faith. In terms of the Catholic faith, it would seem she has failed in her promise to raise her children well in the Catholic faith, but she has two children devoted to the Catholic faith, and she has three children all pursuing respectable jobs; one has already completed her PhD, another has completed his masters degree, and the last has finally graduated from medical school. All her children are doing well, and all because of her and our father. 

Parents always feel like they have made a mistake somewhere when their children make a decision they think is 'wrong'. Sometimes, things just happens because they were meant to happen.

It would take time for her to realise that she has failed no one, even Jesus Christ whom we all believe. Christianity does not force its religion onto others. So, in this aspect, she has not failed. I was taught well in the Catholic faith, nothing was lacking in this part of my education, but I just could not understand the fundamental basis of Christianity; the trinity, not due to lack of explanation; it just didn't sit well with me.

So, while I have a mandatory 2 years of government service in order to attain my medical licence, I have done as she asked; that is to apply for work close to home (I suspect it is so she can keep a close eye on me and keep me away from the influence of my Muslim friends... hehehe). What I can avoid, I will avoid when I can, what I cannot, I will try my best. Outwardly, I would not be a Muslim, but inwardly and in the privacy of my room, my shahadah will still hold firm. 

Some will probably say I am a bad Muslim, that I do not practice the religion I claim I believe. Be that as it may, Allah is the one who will judge me and only Allah and I know what I believe in my heart. 

Some say that I should stand my ground, be Muslim outwardly all the way, regardless, but this in my opinion will do more harm than good. The purpose of this test is not to aggravate the situation and push my family further away. The way I see it, the purpose is to win over the hearts of my parents and not bully them into submission. Kind and gentle ways are more effective than aggression or brash actions. 

But life does move on, and I do realise that I cannot just postpone my life till my parents accept my new faith. So, I have given myself a time-limit. For the duration of my housemanship (inshaAllah it will be 2 years and not extended longer), I will be the obedient daughter. After that duration of time, then I will have to take matters into my own hands. My life is my own to make, and I have my own plans for life. So, I will finally insist on living life my own way, whether they accept it or not, but of course I will still be a daughter to them. I will still be as Islam requires me to be with my parents; kind and gentle and a good daughter, but also one firm in her decision in life. 

Whatever happens, at least I can say that I've tried to convince them for 2 years. It is their decision to accept or oppose my decision, and that is something I cannot force. 

We, as Muslims can always preach Islam and plant the seed, but it is only Allah who can move the heart for the seed to grow. 

So, for those in the same boat as I am, all we can do is try our best to help our parents understand Islam, show them kindness, gentleness and treat them with honour, pray, and leave everything to Allah. Everything is already written out... as we have to believe in the 6th pillar of iman; belief in al-Qadar (divine predestination), which is the hardest of the 6 pillars of Iman. 

p/s: belief in al-Qadar includes 4 things:

1) Allah knows everything. He knows what has happened and what will happen
2) Allah has recorded all that has happened and all that will happen
3) whatever Allah wills to happen happens, and whatever He wills not to happen does not happen
4) Allah is the Creator of everything


The 6 pillars of Iman are:
1) Belief in Allah
2) Belief in the Angels
3) Belief in the Holy Books (Taurat, Injil, Zaboor, Quran; only the Quran is authentic)
4) Belief in the Prophets 
5) Belief in Judgement Day
6) Belief in al-Qadar 

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh

Tasbih ala khayr!!!! 

Fortified Faith

** It has been a long time since I have attempted writing short stories, but somehow, I was inspired. This was written some time ago, but only published here now. Might be a little convoluted, but I hope you all enjoy it! Bismillahirrahmanirrahim!!!**


5 candles. 1 mirror. 1 window. 1 hijab....

1 woman...

Remove it, or never leave home! 
Obey, or leave and never come home!



What has become of my religion? Practiced only in the privacy of a home, and forgotten outside? 
What has become of me? Made to choose one or the other?
What has become of my soul? Weeping, faltering, and lost...

What do you see? Myself. Beautiful, educated, youthful... but weak. 
What else do you see? I am oppressed. I am limited. I am judged. I am no one. 
What do you want? I want freedom... I want to breathe... I want to be me!
Why don't you? I can't... I have no choice in the matter...

What do you see? Myself...



A woman stands in a darkened room; 5 candles, 1 window, 1 mirror, 1 hijab... and her. Her life is at a crossroad; defy her religion, or defy society. Her tears stained her cheeks as they fall onto her Quran. Each drop weighing more than the world itself; each trickle holding all the pain her soul is silently screaming; each tear identical to those shed by the oppressed seeking freedom...

With trembling hands, she flipped the pages of her Quran... 6:93 (And who is more unjust than one who invents a lie about Allah or says, "It has been inspired to me," while nothing has been inspired to him, and one who says, "I will reveal [something] like what Allah revealed." And if you could but see when the wrongdoers are in the overwhelming pangs of death while the angels extend their hands, [saying], "Discharge your souls! Today you will be awarded the punishment of [extreme] humiliation for what you used to say against Allah other than the truth and [that] you were, toward His verses, being arrogant.")

Who is your Lord? Who is my Lord? Who do I rely on? For whom have I lived for?

Ashadu an la ilaha illa'llah... my soul was of purest white that day. Where has my innocence gone?


Who is your Prophet? Who do I follow? Whose ummah do I belong to?

wa ashadu anna Muhammadan Rasululu'llah... his teachings filled my life ever since. Where has my knowledge gone? 


What is your religion? Oh, what has happened to the religion I chose? 

Islam... is this the reality of my religion? 


Do you know who you are? Who am I? Sumayyah... 


Can I not live in this world and be who I must be? Can I not live in this world and live in Islam? 
Why should I let myself be chained by men? Why should I let myself be a puppet for society? 

Sumayyah... she was the first to die for Islam... and I have her name...
How shameful that a coward like me carry her name... is this all I am? 

NO! 

To live and to die in Islam would be better than living by the acceptance of society!
Freedom? Why am I seeking for freedom when I have already found it? 
I am oppressed, yes, but not by my religion but by myself and by society! 
I refuse to be only an object of beauty! I am much more than that!
I refuse to be judged by anyone except Allah! 
I refuse to be confined in a man-made box which will bring no benefit to me!

Mine is the freedom Allah gave!
Mine is the beauty Allah bestowed!
Mine is the Heaven Allah promised!

The wind blew strong, as the woman rose. With each answer, a candle is lit. With each conviction, she has found herself. With each step, her jihad is fortified. 

Who is your Lord? No more will I be weak, for I have the greatest of all behind me. No more will I change myself except for the Al-Azim! Ashadu anna ila ha illa'llah!!

Who is your Prophet? No more will I forget the teachings of my prophet. No more will I be ashamed to live as my ummah! wa shadu anna muhammadar rasullullah!!

What is your religion? No more will I ignore my duties of da'wah! No more will I hide my religion! My religion is Islam!!

What do you want? Jannah!!

Who do you see? Myself. Sumayyah!! 


5 candles burn brightly, refusing to be blown out by the wind. The mirror now shattered as chains no longer bind her. The window now wide open for her to fly free. The hijab worn proudly by the woman; a testament to her Lord; a verification of her prophet; a symbol of her religion. 

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Hijab and aurat.. the whys and hows @_@

Ah, the most controversial issue about a Muslimah: the Hijab.

Every non-Muslim woman wonders why a Muslimah covers her hair. 









Then the non-Muslim woman sees a Muslimah with the niqab: Oh, dear...










Then she walks past a Muslimah in a full niqab (eyes covered as well): Oh, my...









Lastly, she comes upon a Muslimah dressed in a burqa: Dear Lord, what oppression!










I come from two worlds. There is a clear line drawn between these two worlds of mine: the old and the new. You see, for 23 years, I was a Roman Catholic; a denomination of Christianity that holds strong to its roots, traditions and the Catholic Bible. I was raised by a mother who grew up in a Catholic convent, I attended Sunday school, was baptized at the age of 12, confirmed at the age of 16 (I think), attended Sunday mass regularly, and attended a school originally founded by priests and nuns, located right next to a Cathedral. I knew my Our Father, my Hail Mary, etc... I was not exactly a fan of Muslims (stress on the word Muslims... not Islam) but because of that, my opinions on Islam varied accordingly.

Then all that stopped and ended, much to my mother's disappointment and my family's objection. On the 8th of October 2011, I did something all my high-school friends thought was the craziest thing I have ever done; I said my shahadah in front of my friends here in the university I attend. Some didn't know until the appointed 'imam' announced and lead me through my shahadah. Some cried, some smiled... I was just bemused. 

So, given my history, I see things from two sides. I understand what a non-Muslim thinks about Muslims and Islam and I understand personally how it is being a Muslimah. 

The aspect of my change is wide, it is not just a change of heart and fashion, but also a change in mentality and how I view what goes on in the world as well. 

But since the topic I chose to share today is about the Hijab, I will stick to this. It is already a big topic but hey, I'm not Wikipedia :P

So...

The Hijab. I started wearing the hijab much earlier before I embraced Islam, say... 4 years prior to 2011? heheh... it just started out as curiosity. Since I was away from home, and for the first time in my life, I actually have Muslim friends who I feel close with. So I just thought why not? It'll be a new experience! And it was. It was not as uncomfortable as I imagined it would be and not ugly. With or without the hijab, I still felt pretty, but when I walk out the door with my hijab, it's a different kind of pretty. Something more private, something more mysterious and something more fulfilling. 

Of course, that sparked a lot of talking among my friends and other students and some teachers as well. My Christian friends (at this time I was involved with many Christian programmes) were well, they weren't hostile but they didn't agree with my actions. I remember one friend, a senior suggesting that instead of wearing a hijab, I should wear the habit instead. That sparked quite a heated conversation between us and our friendship was never the same after that. But I stood my ground for as long as I could. It finally got too much so I stopped. 

The hijab never really left me. The feelings stayed with me as I went through the roughest time my faith endured. It got so rough, to a point I refused to believe in anything. 

Then 2011 came. For the first time since I went abroad for my studies, I decided to go for a trip. A bunch of my Muslim friends were going to Egypt during our winter holidays and within one day, I convinced my other friend (a Christian Chinese) to accompany me. So, we embarked on that trip, happy and excited, oblivious to the chaos that laid awaiting us in Egypt. But when Allah has a plan for you, you sometimes go blind: in my case, I ignored the news concerning the bombing in Domodedovo the day prior to our little group's departure for that same airport, and all 9 of us ignored the news about the uprising in Tunisia and Egypt. 

Free from prying eyes and opinions, I was again free to wear my hijab. Oh, how wonderful it felt putting on my hijab as the Azhan rang in the air. And that was it, Egypt was my platform. I boarded the train and never turned back. 

A persons journey to Islam may start with intense study of different religion, some through observing a Muslim friend closely, others through instant revelation, but my journey to Islam started with one simple piece of square cloth; the Hijab

1. The hijab
2. Aurat
3. Hijab styles
4. Abaya
5. Makeup
6. Eyebrows
7. Perfume


A hijab is not just a cloth that covers ones head, hair and neck, but it covers ones treasure. You know how we women treasure our beauty. We love being beautiful, that's why the cosmetic industry is one of the most marketable and profitable industries. Every woman on this earth loves looking pretty. But beauty differ according to culture and individual. Everyone has a certain beauty about them even if others do not see it. If you have a gold bar, you don't go showing it off, do you? No. Instead, you keep it in a safe, or in the bank behind several inches of metal. So, why should a woman's beauty be any different? It is HER treasure. So, in Islam, we say, hide it. Do not be common and decrease your value by showing it to just anyone. It is for you to share with your husband. 

That's the basic idea of a hijab. The most basic. To go further deeper, the hijab also helps the men. Girls, you know how men are, and men, you know yourself. A man sees a pretty lady, and he turns to look for a second time, looks at her face, then her chest, then that nice piece of *** then the oh so sexy slim legs. WOW!! that's a hot mama right there! It's how men are programmed. It's their natural instinct. If it stops there, then that's fine, but very few men just stop there. They continue to wonder how all that feels to his touch, etc. Majority have the discipline to control that basic human urge, but still, show some pity to the poor man! 

If a woman is covered up from head to toe (not necessary in a burqa) what's there for a man to see? He can't know if she is to his liking or not. What chest to see? What *** to admire? What legs to stare at? It's all covered up, in long loose clothing. He can't see the pretty hair or the nice slim neck that's hidden under then hijab. He can't see the pretty lips curved in a smile behind the niqab. He can't see the pretty eyes sparkling behind the veil. What he can't see, he won't think about. When there's nothing for him to think about, he's not gonna have urges. Sisters, help your brothers, don't torment them with your beauty. 

Not only that, you also earn their respect. A man will not disturb a woman who is covered up. He knows that she is not to be played with. He knows that she is to be respected. He knows that her dignity is to be honoured. We women dream of the knight in shining armour, the honourable gentlemen who treats his lady with respect. Well, there he is. He respects you, he honours you, but before you ask all that from a man, you have to show that respect and protect that honour yourself! That is why a Muslimah wears her hijab. That is why a Muslimah covers her aurat. Allah gave her beauty and she obeys and covers herself. 

The hijab should be low enough to cover her chest. Why? It's obvious. 

Aurat
When speaking about the hijab, we explain the aurat. Aurat is everything that should be covered. For women, it is everything except the face and hands. The FEET is also part of the aurat!! Though many of us forget that. So, a woman can be seen in public or by non-mahrams (men she can marry) when she is covered fully, except for her hands and face. So, the niqab is not compulsory, but should a woman choose to do so, then better for her. But if a woman is still not able to bring herself to such a level, then she looses nothing. 

If a woman covers her head but wears a tight blouse or a short skirt with leggings, then her aurat is still exposed. She might as well just remove the hijab. To cover ones aurat, it is not just putting a cloth over it. The shape of the body should not be seen. You're not suppose to wrap your aurat, you're suppose to cover it. What's the point of wrapping the vase tightly with a cloth? You still know it's a vase even if you can't see it. Same with the aurat. A man can still see the shape of your ass and breasts when you wear something tight. He doesn't need to see flesh to imagine how good they look... he just needs the rough shape of it. So, a Muslimah should wear something loose. 

Hijab styles
When a Muslimah covers her aurat with loose clothing, with a hijab, what's next? How she wear those clothes! Type hijab tutorials on youtube and you will see many many different styles to tie a hijab. It is not wrong to be stylish, for a sheikh once said, better for a woman to cover herself with all the style she wants, than not to cover herself at all. Now why would a sheikh say this? Because, Islam came to men in steps. It's a step by step programme. The radical and faster a person changes, the higher risk of the person falling back as fast. But if a person changes step by step, there is time to understand. We are no longer living in the times of Muhammad s.a.w or the time of Omar or the times of the Khalifahs. "See and I will believe", that is how our psyche is. We see, then we believe. But Muhammad s.a.w is not here for us to see and hear, so it is more difficult for us to change our ways. Thus, step by step. With each step, understand.

At the first few months, I wore the hijab in different styles. Everyday was a different fashion. But slowly, slowly, my hijab got longer and less stylish. Of course, when there's a celebration, the fashionista pop's back for a short visit :P 
Why is this? Because the purpose of covering ones aurat, is to decrease attracting attention. So if your hijab is in some eye-catching colour or fashion, then it kinda defies the point. But it is still better than not wearing the hijab at all. Change takes time... this is very important especially to the Muslims!!! Muslims also need to be understanding to their new brothers and sisters whether reverting from a different religion or one starting to take back their roots in Islam. Come on too strong, and you will loose your ummah. 

Abaya
The abaya, which is the most convenient Muslimah attire to wear in order to adhere to the hows of covering ones aurat, comes most commonly in black. Why? I have no idea! But it has been black since the time of Muhammad s.a.w. and it remained that way. It is not written in the al-Quran that it MUST be black. So, it now comes in several other colours with nice pretty designs. It is not haram if you want to wear a blue abaya, or purple, or pink, or brown, but remember!!!! Remember that the point of covering your aurat is so that you don't stand out. So, if you're in Saudi Arabia, where all women walk in a sea of black (top to bottom) wearing a coloured hijab and coloured abaya, while not haram, still makes you stick out from the crowd. But if you are in Malaysia, or Indonesia, or USA, Australia, colours are the norm. So, depending where you are, dress accordingly. Always remember the purpose of covering your aurat, and you'd rarely go wrong. But of course wearing bright pink even in Malaysia will still turn heads!


Makeup
What about makeup? Well, like I said, the whole purpose of wearing a hijab and if some choose, the niqab, is to cover your aurat which in turn is to decrease attracting attention to oneself. So, striking makeup would defy the whole point. Sure, khol is not haram... I think... unless you apply it like Cleopetra, then it's better that you don't. Lipstick... guess that depends on your husband or your father. But again... remember the purpose of covering your aurat...


Eyebrows
Plucking ones eyebrows!!! heheh... This, I find funny. Because, although it is haram, I still see many women, especially those from the middle east with nicely shaped eyebrows. Here's the hadith concerning plucking of eyebrows:

Al-Bukhaari (5931) and Muslim (2125) narrated that ‘Abd-Allaah ibn Mas’ood (may Allaah be pleased with him) said: “May Allaah curse the women who do tattoos and those who have them done, those who have their eyebrows plucked, and those who file their teeth for the purpose of beautification and change the creation of Allaah.”

It was stated in a Fatwa: Shaping the eyebrows by trimming, shaving or plucking their edges in order to appear beautiful, as is done by some women nowadays, is haraam because it involves changing the creation of Allaah and following the Shaytaan in his tempting of mankind to change the creation of Allaah.



Perfume
Perfume!!! This is haram. But I'm sure deodorant is fine and you can wear ALL the perfume you want when you're at home :P I'm sure your husband will love that!

Abu Moosa al-Ash’ari said: the Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Any woman who puts on perfume then passes by people so that they can smell her fragrance, is an adulteress.”


Allah has given every woman their own beauty. It is up to a husband to see it. We have no right to change what Allah has given us especially if its not medically related. We can enhance it with makeup, creams, etc but only in the presence of the appropriate persons. 

So, women, if you are looking for a love story, look no further. Islam has given you the most romantic, and beautiful love story there is, even better than Romeo and Juliet, as no one dies in the end. How? Your beauty is only for your husband. When you truly understand how that feels, it is definitely a very romantic feeling. 

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Tales of a time long forgotten

Tales of a time long forgotten

There was a time, so long ago, it seemed a fairytale
A time long ago, where men were men and women were women
A time spoken with awe, retold countless times, 
But alas... only whispers blown away

A time where men took up arms, without fear of death
Under one call, Under one religion, Under one leader, Under one God.
No countries divided, no borders drawn
Under one flag, under one purpose, Under one cry 'Allahu Akhbar'
They fought and died, proud, fearless martyrs

A time where the beauty of a woman was not in her smile,
Nor her hair, her eyes, her face, her hands, or how much of her body she showed.
But beauty was in the Hijab she wore, the obedience behind the Niqab that hid the very lips that utter praises of her God
Beauty in the way she walked, proud but humble, beautiful though nothing could be seen, eyes lowered in obedience not oppression

The wind whispers of stories long passed,
Of princes of Islam, during the time of Khalifas
Of princesses of Islam, during the time of obedience
Stories retold, stories revisited, stories passed down...
But still... they remain stories... 



True as they may be, heroic as they may be,
Romantic as they may be, they remain stories...
Stories of bygone history...
Alas... will we let it become a myth?

Look to your left, look to your right,
Quran as your guide, Islam as your purpose, Allah as your trusty
Look at the mirror, look within
Takwa, Tawakal, Deen, Iman, Islam... all in one

The beast long asleep, is starting to stir,
It casts of its slumber, it is ready to roar,
Tunisia, Egypt, Yemen, Jordon, Libya, Syria...
And the one forever fighting,
Mother of all, home to all, beloved of all... Palestine

Will we only be spectators?
Ignoring the vibration of faith in our hearts,
Rippling through our body and the world?
Or will we be one of the heroes and heroins of Islam?


(Souhayla NourJannah)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Home is in a foreign land, for me...


Lights stretched out in the horizon, painting the midnight sky.
no pretty stars to adorn the night's carpet,
nor a moon to glow in the darkened globe

But the lights of the city twinkle brightly, smiling at me
voices spoke from near, voices that made me smile
a smile... a sad smile for a heart out of place...

I stand high above everyone, looking down,
Down on soft white snowy ground,
hiding footprints and whispers, hiding...

I remember a night like this once before,
quite, beautiful as this,
with voices far off, in a language I so love

I remember a night like this once before,
quite, beautiful as she is,
in a city of a country with a culture I so love

Back then, I smiled too, but a smile so different,
Back then, I smiled radiant,
I smiled for a city of a country with a culture I so love

I stood high above everyone, back then, looking down
Down on hard, sandy ground, hiding nothing
My heart longed for nothing, then,
for what was there to desire?
in a city of a country with a religion I so love

A salam, shattered the mirage,
it fled and left me standing,
standing high above everyone,
looking into eyes of one lost, saddened;
of a reflection, mirrored in a misty window

A salam, reminded me of where I am,
and of what I left behind, long ago;
standing high above everyone,
feeling out of place, everywhere,

but I remember, once upon a night long ago,
I stood high above everyone,
Smiling so radiant, heart bursting with happiness

Home is in a foreign land, for me
in a city of a country with a culture, grown of my religion...

Home is in a foreign land, for me
in a city of a country with a language, whispered in Jannah...

Home is in a foreign land, for me
in a city of a country I so love and long to be with...

It called me habibti... and I,
I whispered habibi, in return...

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Hadith 2: Islam, Iman and Ihsan

 السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته
Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh 
أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم
A'udhu billahi minash shaitanir rajim
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 
Bismillahir rahmanir rahim

So, today, I will be writing about the second hadith from the Nawawi collection.





عَنْ عُمَرَ رَضِيَ اللهُ عَنْهُ أَيْضًا قَالَ: " بَيْنَمَا نَحْنُ جُلُوسٌ عِنْدَ رَسُولِ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه و سلم ذَاتَ يَوْمٍ، إذْ طَلَعَ عَلَيْنَا رَجُلٌ شَدِيدُ بَيَاضِ الثِّيَابِ، شَدِيدُ سَوَادِ الشَّعْرِ، لَا يُرَى عَلَيْهِ أَثَرُ السَّفَرِ، وَلَا يَعْرِفُهُ مِنَّا أَحَدٌ. حَتَّى جَلَسَ إلَى النَّبِيِّ صلى الله عليه و سلم . فَأَسْنَدَ رُكْبَتَيْهِ إلَى رُكْبَتَيْهِ، وَوَضَعَ كَفَّيْهِ عَلَى فَخْذَيْهِ، 
وَقَالَ: يَا مُحَمَّدُ أَخْبِرْنِي عَنْ الْإِسْلَامِ. 


فَقَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه و سلم الْإِسْلَامُ أَنْ تَشْهَدَ أَنْ لَا إلَهَ إلَّا اللَّهُ وَأَنَّ مُحَمَّدًا رَسُولُ اللَّهِ، وَتُقِيمَ الصَّلَاةَ، وَتُؤْتِيَ الزَّكَاةَ، وَتَصُومَ رَمَضَانَ، وَتَحُجَّ الْبَيْتَ إنْ اسْتَطَعْت إلَيْهِ سَبِيلًا. 

قَالَ: صَدَقْت . فَعَجِبْنَا لَهُ يَسْأَلُهُ وَيُصَدِّقُهُ!
قَالَ: فَأَخْبِرْنِي عَنْ الْإِيمَانِ. 
قَالَ: أَنْ تُؤْمِنَ بِاَللَّهِ وَمَلَائِكَتِهِ وَكُتُبِهِ وَرُسُلِهِ وَالْيَوْمِ الْآخِرِ، وَتُؤْمِنَ بِالْقَدَرِ خَيْرِهِ وَشَرِّهِ.
قَالَ: صَدَقْت. قَالَ: فَأَخْبِرْنِي عَنْ الْإِحْسَانِ. 
قَالَ: أَنْ تَعْبُدَ اللَّهَ كَأَنَّك تَرَاهُ، فَإِنْ لَمْ تَكُنْ تَرَاهُ فَإِنَّهُ يَرَاك. 
قَالَ: فَأَخْبِرْنِي عَنْ السَّاعَةِ. قَالَ: مَا الْمَسْئُولُ عَنْهَا بِأَعْلَمَ مِنْ السَّائِلِ. 
قَالَ: فَأَخْبِرْنِي عَنْ أَمَارَاتِهَا؟ قَالَ: أَنْ تَلِدَ الْأَمَةُ رَبَّتَهَا، وَأَنْ تَرَى الْحُفَاةَ الْعُرَاةَ الْعَالَةَ رِعَاءَ الشَّاءِ يَتَطَاوَلُونَ فِي الْبُنْيَانِ. ثُمَّ انْطَلَقَ، فَلَبِثْنَا مَلِيًّا، 
ثُمَّ قَالَ: يَا عُمَرُ أَتَدْرِي مَنْ السَّائِلُ؟. 
‫‬قُلْتُ: اللَّهُ وَرَسُولُهُ أَعْلَمُ. 
قَالَ: فَإِنَّهُ جِبْرِيلُ أَتَاكُمْ يُعَلِّمُكُمْ دِينَكُمْ ". رَوَاهُ مُسْلِمٌ [رقم:8].

A’n Omar radi Allah a’anho qal “bainama nahn jloos i’end rassol Alla (saw) dhat yaom, idh talaa’ a’alina rajolon shadeed bayad altheab, shadeed sawad al shaa’r, la yora a’alaih atharo assafar, w la yaa’rifoho minna ahad. Hatta jalasa ila annabee (saw). Fasnada rokbataeh ila rokbataeh w wadaa’ kaffaih ala fakhidaeeh, w qal: ya Mohammad akbernee a’an alislam, fqal: rasool Allah (saw), an tashhada ana la illah illa allah w an Mohammadan rasool Allah, w toqeem alsalah, w tootee alzakah, w tasoom Ramadan, w tahij albeit in istata’at ilaih sabela. Qal: sadaqt. Faa’ajebna laho yasaloho w yosaddeq. Qal: fakhbernee a’an alieeman. Qal: an toomen ba Allah w malaeekateh w kotebeh w rosoleh w alyaoom al akher khaireh w sharrih. Qal: sadaqt. Qaal fakhbernee an alihsan. Qal an taa’bod Allah kaanak trah fien lam takon tarah fienah yrak. Qal: fakhbernee a’n alsaa’ah. Qal: ma almasool a’anha biaa’lam men alsaiel. Qal: fakhbernee a’an amarateha? Qal: an talida alaamah rabbataha, w an tra alhofat alo’rat ala’alah roa’a alshai ytatawaloon albonyan. Thom intalaq. Falabethna Malian. Thom qal: ya Omar atadree man alsaeel? Qolt allah w rasooloh aa’lam. Qal: faenaho jebreel atakom yo’alemakom denakom.” Rawah Muslim


"While we were one day sitting with the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, there appeared before us a man dressed in extremely white clothes and with very black hair. No traces of journeying were visible on him, and none of us knew him. He sat down close by the Prophet, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, rested his knee against his thighs, and said, O Muhammad! Inform me about Islam." Said the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, "Islam is that you should testify that there is no deity save Allah and that Muhammad is His Messenger, that you should perform salah(ritual prayer), pay the zakah, fast during Ramadan, and perform Hajj (pilgrimage) to the House (the Ka'bah at Makkah), if you can find a way to it (or find the means for making the journey to it)." Said he (the man), "You have spoken truly." We were astonished at his thus questioning him and telling him that he was right, but he went on to say, "Inform me about iman (faith)." He (the Messenger of Allah) answered, "It is that you believe in Allah and His angels and His Books and His Messengers and in the Last Day, and in fate (qadar), both in its good and in its evil aspects." He said, "You have spoken truly." Then he (the man) said, "Inform me about Ihsan." He (the Messenger of Allah) answered, " It is that you should serve Allah as though you could see Him, for though you cannot see Him yet He sees you." He said, "Inform me about the Hour." He (the Messenger of Allah) said, "About that the one questioned knows no more than the questioner." So he said, "Well, inform me about the signs thereof (i.e. of its coming)." Said he, "They are that the slave-girl will give birth to her mistress, that you will see the barefooted ones, the naked, the destitute, the herdsmen of the sheep (competing with each other) in raising lofty buildings." Thereupon the man went off. I waited a while, and then he (the Messenger of Allah) said, "O 'Umar, do you know who that questioner was?" I replied, "Allah and His Messenger know better." He said, "That was Jibril. He came to teach you your religion." [Muslim]




Basically, while Muhammad saw was giving a sermon, a man with very black hair and very white clothes came and sat in front of Muhammad and started asking a bunch of questions. Here, normally when someone asks a question, it means that the person doesn't know the answer, but this stranger actually affirms the Prophet's saw answers, like a teacher affirming the answer of a student. Aside from the peculiar manner of the interaction between this stranger and Muhammad saw, was also the strangers appearance. He appeared clean and tidy, not exactly how someone would look like if he'd been on a journey. People then didn't have cars or trains, so when travelling, they'll be on camels, or walking and you'd NOTICE that a person has been traveling; dust in the hair, unwashed body, dust and stained clothes. But this stranger was clean and groomed. 

Why would we say he was on a journey? Because no one gathered there knew who this stranger was. Now, society in those days were completely different than ours today. Everyone knew everyone living in the same village and most likely knew each others business as well. So, since no one even knew this stranger, then definitely, he's not from around there. 

Why is this hadith important? Because it summarizes the essence and practices of a Muslim. Like the al-Fatihah is the mother of the al-Quran as it summarizes what Islam is, this hadith is the mother of the sunnah.

While the first hadith (concerning the deeds of a person) is the theory of a Muslim's life, the second hadith is the practicals of a Muslim's life, and as we will see later, the third hadith is the application of Islam in a Muslim's life. As medical students, we sit in class learning the theories, like how to perform and IV injection (1st hadith). Then we do actually do hold a syringe and practice on either a dummy or a live patient (in some cases, on each other) (2nd hadith). They in our last few years of medical school, we learn when to actually use IV injections as not all drugs are required as IV administration in all cases. If you want fast result then of course IV, if not necessary, then other ways such as IM, PO, PR (3rd hadith) 

The important thing in this hadith is the conversation between the stranger and Muhammad saw. 

The first question
What is Islam? Here, the answer enumerates the 5 pillars of Islam:
  • Shahadah (الشهادة)
  • Solat ( صلاة)
  • Zakat (زكاة)
  • Fasting during Ramadan (تَصُومَ رَمَضَانَ)
  • Hajj (حج)
The shahadah is the first step to being a Muslim, and it is something that a Muslim takes to the grave. It is bearing witness to everyone and everything in this world that Allah is the one and only God, and that Muhammad saw is the messenger of Allah.



أشهد أن لا إله إلاَّ الله و أشهد أن محمد رسول الله 
Ash-hadu an laa ilaaha illallah, Wa ash-hadu anna Muhammadan rasulullah

I bear witness that there is no God, except Allah, and I bear witness that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah.





Solat or salah is the prayers a Muslim performs everyday. Here, remember that there are many different prayers for different purposes. Basically, it can be divided into two types: fard prayers, and sunnah prayers. Sunnah prayers are not compulsory, but encouraged; prayers when seeking Allah's swt help: sunnah hajat, sunnah istikharah, sunnah syukur, etc.

In the context of the hadith, Muhammad was talking about the fard prayers; the compulsory 5 prayers a day: al-fajr, al-zuhur, al-asar, al-mahgrib, and al-ishak.




Next is the zakat. Zakat is the fraction of a Muslim's earnings that has to be given to the community. There is usually a central collection (such as a bank) to which the zakat can be paid. The money collected is then distributed all around to those who requires it. Zakat is compulsory for a Muslim who is earning money. So, when I start work, I have to start paying zakat. It does not amount to much, as it is about 2.5% of my paycheck.



Fasting during ramadan. There are 12 months to a year, and 4 of those months are Holy. Ramadhan, is one of the 4 holy months in the Islamic calender. All Muslims after the age of puberty is required to fast during this Holy month. It is a time to cleanse and purity ones soul, with sacrifice of the body and its desires and the giving of sadaqa (charity). It is where, for a full month, a Muslim wakes up to take sahoor (eating before al-fajr) and breaking ones fast with iftar (eating after al-mahgrib).





The last pillar of Islam is Hajj. The 3 most holiest places in Islam is Mecca, Madinah and the al-Aqsa mosque which is located in occupied Palestine. During the time of Hajj, Muslims flock from all over the world to do pilgrimage in Mecca, where they stand before the Ka'aba which Ibrahim built. Hajj is compulsory to those who are able-bodied and who can afford.






The second question:
What is Iman? Iman in the layman's term means faith; complete faith. The answer given enumerates the six pillars of Iman.


  1. faith in Allah
    • Complete faith that Allah is the only God, that He is the all-knowing, the Almighty, etc
  2. faith in the existence of angels
    • Complete faith that Allah's servents (the angels) are there doing His biding. They do not disobey or question Allah's commands. They were made from light, and have no characteristics of a man or woman and do not procreate. No one knows how many angels there are except Allah. To name a few:
    • Jibril, who served as a messenger between Allah and Muhammad (and the stranger in this hadith)
    • Ridwan, who is responsible for Jannah (heaven)
    • U'zrail, the angel of death, who took mud from earth when Allah created Adam
    • Israfil, who is responsible for blowing the horn, signalling the coming of Qiyamah (Judgement day)
    • Mikail, who provides nourishment for bodies and souls, responsible for bringing rain and thunder to Earth, responsible to dole out rewards to good persons in life
    • Alkeram Alkatebeen, who records everything we say and do, sitting on our right and left shoulders, to whom Muslims give salam after salah. 
    • Munkar and Nakir, who will ask 3 questions when we enter the grave (who is your God, what is your religion, who is your prophet)
    • Malik, who is the care taker of fires of Hell
  3. faith in the books of Allah
    • In Islam, we recognize 4 books; the Torah (given to Musa/Moses), the Zaboor (given to Daud/David), the Injil (given to Issa/Jesus) and the al-Quran (given to Muhammad saw). Of course, the only book that we now follow is the al-Quran, as the authentic Torah, Zaboor and Injil no longer exist.        
  4. faith in the prophets of Allah
    • Complete faith to those whom Allah have selected to bring the word of Allah and the teachings of Islam to humankind, starting all the way from the first, Prophet Adam alaihi alsalatu wassallam till the last, Prophet Muhammad saw. 
  5. faith in Qiyammah (Judgement Day)
    • Belief that there is a Judgement day awaiting us, a day which will fall upon us whether we want to or not. Everyone, believers and non-believers from the beginning of time till the end of days, will be brought back to life and stand trial in front of Allah for all their deeds, bad and good. 
  6. faith in Fate (Qadr)
    • Complete faith that whatever happens, bad or good, according to our liking or not comes from Allah, and is the best for us, as Allah is all knowing (al-Alim)




Islam and Iman must coincide with each other, for without faith, religion becomes empty; without Iman, the 5 pillars of Islam becomes nothing but a burden and empty gestures; without Islam, then a person becomes empty of Iman as the practices of religion strengthens and builds a persons faith. 




The third question:
What is Ihsan? Ihsan here speaks about the heart; sincerity and commitment. Everything a Muslim does, pray, eat, sleep, do Hajj, etc should be done with sincerity and commitment, as though you can see Allah in front of you. If a Muslim cannot reach that level of Ihsan, then at least he/she should remember that Allah sees everything he/she does. Religion is not something to be done one day, and left the next and picked up again later. It is a commitment for life. There is no divorcing yourself from Islam. 

This is a tale of a devout Muslim

When Hatim al Asamm was asked about his prayer, he said, "When it is near the time of prayer, I perform a perfect Wudu, and go to where I am going to pray and sit down there until I become fully attentive to what I am about to do. I then stand up and pray, imagining that the Ka'ba is in front of my eyes, Jannah to my right, Hellfire to my left and the Angel of Death behind me. I imagine that it is the last prayer I am about to perform, stand up in hope (in Allah, His Jannah and rewards) and fear (from Allah's torment in Hellfire) an recite the Takbir while having full attention. I recite the Quran calmly, make Ruku' humbly, go into Sujud with Khushu. I then sit on my left leg, with the left foot laid on the floor and the right foot raised up, all the while praying with sincerity. Afterwards, I do not know (nor feel certain) if that prayer was accepted from me!


The fourth question:
What are the sign of the Qiyammah?

Muhammad saw answered, 'the one who is asked does not know anymore than the one who is asking'. It is true. No one knows when Judgement day will come. No one knows when the Dajjal will come. No one knows the second coming of Issa alaihi alsalatu wassallam. No one knows when the world will come to an end. It can come tomorrow, it can come in a month, a year, a decade, a century... 




But one thing, we know is that we are living in the times approaching the end. Some signs stated in this hadith are:
  1. the destruction of morality
    • 'when the slave girl gives birth to her mistress', means to show that children no longer respect nor care for their parents and they treat their parents like their slaves. We see many children now talking back to their parents, disobeying them, ill-treating them. 
  2. destruction of government
    • 'when the barefooted ones, the naked, the destitute, the herdsmen of the sheep (competing with each other) in raising lofty buildings', means to show that government are not given to the right or qualified people. The government of Islam, that was in the time of the khalifa's is no longer seen today. Take the Emirates; they were initially bedouins, nomads moving here and there with camels and their tents, living on trade, nomadic agriculture and herding. But because of the discovery of oil they are now rich, very rich. 'raising lofty buildings': Dubai is building taller, more luxurious buildings to promote themselves. Rich people now pay for power, if you have money, you have power, but how many of them are qualified to hold power? 

With the collapse of the khalifa system, due to Muslims ourselves, we are now in the dark ages. Luckily, most still uphold the practices of Islam, though not enough to rebuild an Islamic government, these few are the building blocks. Everything up high, must start from the bottom. So, we start with individual Muslims who are true to Islam, and build our way up, from family, to community, to town, to city, to state, to country, and so forth. So, our beacon of hope, we look now to Egypt. If Egypt holds strong, then others will follow. 



That is all, for this hadith, as it has been a long winded explanation. Stay tuned for hadith number 3... whenever I get the inspiration to write again, inshaAllah, it will be soon. 

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh 
(السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته)